What should I write ?

I was thinking
What should I write?

Memories of my past
or your past?
Memories of the happy time
or memories of the dark?
What should I write?

Your questions
or my answers?
My letters full of love
or your painful words?
What should I write?

My feelings
or your feelings?
My tears
or your smiles?
What should I write?

I'm still thinking
What should I write?
Your name
or my name?

- by Cold

Break

I can't control myself anymore
My body is controlling me
I am giving in, my soul is leaking
I can't break free, I am bleeding
No place to go
Locked inside, can't get out
Someone please help me
No one to go to
No one to talk to
Everyone is ignoring me

Why must I feel so alone
I need someone, to relieve me
Break me free, of my misery
Calling for angels, to release me
No where in sight
Guess they don't care about me

Darkness is overcoming me
No where to run, and no place to hide
Must let the darkness crawl all over me
The pain inside is surfacing
Beware I might explode
It is too much to hold

The devil is haunting me
Guiding me to hell
And I am following in a trance
Can't break free
Why all these curses
No luck falling on me
I can take no more
I am on my knees
Kneeling on the floor

- by Cold

Belive

Living in a cradle not fit for my dreams
This life is not easy as it seams
Surrounded by feelings
That darken my day
Hearing people cry on the way
Tears on my face that melt the pain
Blinding my eyes with the heavy rain
Hoping for a single sign from him
Knowing my life was never so dim
Waiting for sparkles in your eyes
Longing for smiles to recognize
You never pranced with the falling leaves
Nor sung the hymn of the buzzing bees
Fighting the fears led by the storm
Deliver myself from your heart's thorn
Lighten your way with my desire
Save your hate before you hit the fire
Permit yourselves to kiss the rain
Soar about and dream again
It's never too late for the stars to shine
Believe and you shall have the time
Forever should you have to wait
Stay beside and don't lose faith
Blessed he who lives in you
Believe and you will make it through

- by Cold

Despair

I wish that I could see the light
Or just the moon
But there was night

A hopeless try to breathe again
The air’s so thick
Can’t heal the pain

The hardest thing is to believe
You can’t do nothing
But you live

The pain is not the pain to steal
Say, love is precious
If it’s real.

- by Cold

Love you

My soul calls your name in a whisper and a scream.
My soul calls your name when i'm awake and in my dreams.
My soul calls your name in a language only you can understand.
My soul calls your name a yin to my yang.

Designed as a pair our hearts must be,
like red and green they're simply complimentary.
Our story was written before this all began,
to read it and follow it was His divine plan.
To hold my hand through heartbreak and show you who you could be,
to caress me with your words and lips simultaneously.

Time and time after we do this dance.
On again, off again almost losing our chance,
to see that each is incomplete without the other,
a puzzle of sorts,
I question if we should bother.
My answer comes when I realize my heart's destiny was defined when I met you,
a fact of our lives that has always remained true.
A best friend and a lover intertwined,
I ask myself will we ever have enough time,
an eternity seems to short to share the sublime.

missing you tremendously,
and the way your kisses taste,
your touch, your warmth and your gentle embrace.

my soul calls your name when your here and when I'm alone,
my soul calls your name because our fate is foreknown,
my soul calls your name because you are mine and I am yours,
my soul calls your name even behind closed doors.

- by Cold

Raining Clouds Of Pain

Wandering this earth, all alone
Following the footsteps, on my own
Been left behind
Negative thoughts are, in my mind
I try to run, but I slip and fall
The earth around me, keeps moving
And I try, to move forward, but I can't
Because now

I am crying inside
And raining clouds stay strong, above my head
And I try, to runaway
But the rain keeps falling
So I keep running, never stopping
No one can stop me once I get started
I'll head off and never return
Start a new life and forget my past
And soon, the clouds will clear
And sunlight, will be, peeking through

- by Cold

The Ugliness After Love

The jokes have turned dull,
The laughter into cries,
The giggles of joy into screams of pain,
The patience of love into impatience of hatred
The kindness into sinful objectives
The smiles of happiness into the frowns of depression
The gentle kisses into harmful words of dishonesty
The joyful moments into painful memories
The amazing thoughts into harmful words
The inner-beauty into ugliness
The rhythmic taps of the keyboard into harmful beatings of the drum
The tasteful dreams into awful nightmares
The joys of happiness into the cries of depression
The hopes of more time with others into the needs of being alone
The friendliness into anger, the obsession into threats
The bravery and courage into shyness and uncertainty
The dances into fights, the ups into downs
The hugs and kisses into kicks and punches
The caring into hating
The 'I love you's into silence

- by Cold